after 1st pre board
first half of the review is over.. haiz.. kttapos lng ng first pre board.. at kmuzta nmn un.. 3 subj n naibbagsak q.. na murder p q dun sa 1.. haiz..
way back 4 months ago.. ngdlawang isip n tlga if kaya q magreview.. kz parang di p q ready mentally.. and gs2 q ng mgwork.. taz khit di na q mging CPA.. then there is this person n ngsabi sakin n ituloy q daw.. aun.. tinuloy q nmn.. prang come what may nlng.. first few weeks sa new home nmin (dorm) ok nmn.. laging masaya.. then dumating ung time n feeling q super exhausted n q.. di q man lng masandalan ung taong nagtulak sakin s review.. almost 3wiks nlng pre board na.. dun n ngksabay sabay problem q.. sa dorm, sa review at kung anu ano pa.. at kmuzta nmn aq.. wala pa ring reakxon mula sa taong un.. i’ve already texted him.. i’ve tried to call him pero wala pa rin.. hanggang sa nkalipat n q ng dorm.. that was july 17.. ok nmn khit pano.. mejo maaga nga q nka tulog.. taz un.. that nyt he txtd mesaying n hindi n ayaw n nya mag apologize kz lagi nlng daw gnun.. then i asked him what’s wrong & my dpat pb q i-expect pag uwi q.. he said n ayaw n din nya magpaasa.. hindi n nya kaya i-handle ung relationship nya at di n nya kayang mgsinungaling sa kanila.. my conflict of religion kz kmi.. hanggang s un.. we broke up.. i’ve tried to know the real reaon behind that break up.. pero ang sabi lng conflict of religion.. di q lam nramdman q that nyt.. prang di nag register s utak q.. ewan q ba.. the following day, i changed my cp number.. n hndi q tlga alam kng anu dhilan.. xa ng insist n mgreview aq taz in the middle of the review bigla nya qng iniwan.. para qng napilayan.. ung isa s mga taong pngkkunan q ng lakas ng loob bgla qng iniwan.. then here comes the pre board.. aun… nkahabol nmn aq khit pano.. my mga naaral, my hindi.. hanggang s ntapos pre board.. un saklap ng result.. then i realized n dami q pala nasayang na oras.. ang daming naging mali s buhay q for the past 4mos…
bu then.. despite of everything that happened.. i’m still thankful to God that im still alive.. breathing.. that i still have the chance n maitama lhat ng mga maling pngyyari sa buhay q.. He made me realize what i’ve been missing all this time.. thank you din s cpar 4 jesus.. s pagsalo sakin during the tyms n npkahina ng faith q and npkbba ng self esteem q.. now i realized n di aq pwede sumuko despite everything that happened.. my pamilya q n andyan at bnibigay lhat ng kylangan q despite my wrong doings..
NOW, im ready to face my future without fear.. coz i know that is with me all troughout the path i am taking.. and i know that he wont give me soething he knows i cant handle..
